crap crap crap!!!

what the hell...

y doesnt anyone giv me a commitment..
everyone jus says...

i will c if i can do this...
i am hoping to do this..
i am working on doing that...
i will tell u later...
we'll c how it goes...and then we take it from there...
blah blah blah ...pepepeppeeeepepepe:P
bullshit...

aaaaaaaaa....
and worst still they expect me to giv a committement...

the day i have what i want...i hope i get a chance to give them a piece of my mind..the more bitter and harsher way...i really wish i will do to them what i feel like doing to them rite now.

nonreliable arrogant pains in the neck.
unwanted, unasked for, undeserved.........

unfold....

life has a queer way of unfolding itself in front of u.

finally my mind was not too restless about the uncertainities of life...i thot i have at least an outline of which way my life wud b goin from here. and i thot at least some of the uncertainities were certain now...pun intented:)!!!!!
but only to get those relentlessly restless voids back into my tummy.
from now i wud b blinking and the day will be over. things are catching up...or shud i say i am unable to catch up.
and then spring and then graduation and then research and then job hunt and then another turn in a gypsy's life and another wind on the road ..another veer in direction...and then....again a disarray of thots...
wow...changing thots...growing minds...narrowing ideas...varying circumambiences...reiterated emotions...and while all this happening time keeps goin with its own pace ignoring everything else that happens in everyones life...it is so difficult to b where u shud b...it is so difficult to figure out where u shud b...

continuum but disheveled...
i wonder how such an ambivalence can coexist...and i wonder even while i actually go thru one..!!
figments of maya...conjured in a moment and vanished in another..
aww jez!!!!!!!!
hmmmmmmmm