Tuesday, April 27, 2004
so how much distance shud i maintain to get close enuff?
the same amount of distance that a butterfly maintains while fluttering over tender buds...while it extricates nectar from the buds without crushing life out of it…..
similar to the toothed grip that a mother cat has on its newborns
the same amount of distance that a butterfly maintains while fluttering over tender buds...while it extricates nectar from the buds without crushing life out of it…..
similar to the toothed grip that a mother cat has on its newborns
the accuracy of instincts is scary at times....
i am pretty much in a need of summer jobs...walked into the gym today to chk if i cud find some job there..and i had to meet this gal called jennifer...and its not surprising that everything that shud go rite always goes wrong...so when i was goin i was kinda sceptical about gettin anything worth while...i went anyways....
i entered the gym door and a gal .... black hair not very tall...passed by in the opp. direction...i have no clue y i noticed her...but somhow i did...and the less hopeful part of my mind even said this..."i hope this one who's leaving is not jennifer"... and the more hopeful part of my mind was like.."lets go in and see at least.."...went to the desk and asked the gal....
"where can i meet jennifer?"
"jennifer just walked out..the gal who jus passed by u"
and i cud not believe my ears. i ran out at top speed hoping to catch jennifer...when i reached outside there were ppl walkin in both directions...and it wasnt quite so easy to make out which direction she wud have taken...i looked left ..i looked rite... no one looked like the gal who jus walked ut...and for that matter i was not even sure it was the same gal...and then again jus on a wild guess i decided to run down towards the rite side... i ran for a few secs but there was no gal...so i stopped a bit and looked for her...and i found the gal gal who had walked past me... about at a distance of say 10-15 feet ....i ran and cot up with her...and stopped her and asked...
"excuse me are u jennifer"...
"yes"
hmmmmmm
"well i was lookin fr a summer job"
"sure go to the gym and fill out an application form....
hmmmmmmmm
its scary..hw things turn ut jus the way u think they wud....
the depth of the thot is enuff to send a chill down the spine .... b careful of what u wish for... u mite just get it.
i am pretty much in a need of summer jobs...walked into the gym today to chk if i cud find some job there..and i had to meet this gal called jennifer...and its not surprising that everything that shud go rite always goes wrong...so when i was goin i was kinda sceptical about gettin anything worth while...i went anyways....
i entered the gym door and a gal .... black hair not very tall...passed by in the opp. direction...i have no clue y i noticed her...but somhow i did...and the less hopeful part of my mind even said this..."i hope this one who's leaving is not jennifer"... and the more hopeful part of my mind was like.."lets go in and see at least.."...went to the desk and asked the gal....
"where can i meet jennifer?"
"jennifer just walked out..the gal who jus passed by u"
and i cud not believe my ears. i ran out at top speed hoping to catch jennifer...when i reached outside there were ppl walkin in both directions...and it wasnt quite so easy to make out which direction she wud have taken...i looked left ..i looked rite... no one looked like the gal who jus walked ut...and for that matter i was not even sure it was the same gal...and then again jus on a wild guess i decided to run down towards the rite side... i ran for a few secs but there was no gal...so i stopped a bit and looked for her...and i found the gal gal who had walked past me... about at a distance of say 10-15 feet ....i ran and cot up with her...and stopped her and asked...
"excuse me are u jennifer"...
"yes"
hmmmmmm
"well i was lookin fr a summer job"
"sure go to the gym and fill out an application form....
hmmmmmmmm
its scary..hw things turn ut jus the way u think they wud....
the depth of the thot is enuff to send a chill down the spine .... b careful of what u wish for... u mite just get it.
Monday, April 26, 2004
Monday, April 19, 2004
lifeless...
brown, rusty....
miserable in the cold....
just lying there...
another day...more snow....
still lifeless....jus the same...probably more miserable than yesterday....
another day....new hope....died down soon....still a bunch of dried twigs with no sign of life....
and no sign of renewal of life in them
another day...the same bunch of brown deserted twigs...
with tiny tender green yellow dots over....now whats that?:)
spring time.....survival...bac to life....new begining...
every lil shoot peeping its curious head out to smell the air, to face the warm rays of the sun, to give a new color to the earth...to give a new cheerful ambience to the suroundings...
lil brightly colored flowers appearing on the brunette ground. so many of them together...appear to look like a 100 smiles speard all across the floor.
the subtle nuances of beauty
that each comin day brings with it....
the consistency with which the changes take place....
the certainity that they promise...in its own vague manner...
the fuel that it adds to the already ceaseless fascination that i have for it.
hmmmmmm
life is worth living:)
and its beautiful.
brown, rusty....
miserable in the cold....
just lying there...
another day...more snow....
still lifeless....jus the same...probably more miserable than yesterday....
another day....new hope....died down soon....still a bunch of dried twigs with no sign of life....
and no sign of renewal of life in them
another day...the same bunch of brown deserted twigs...
with tiny tender green yellow dots over....now whats that?:)
spring time.....survival...bac to life....new begining...
every lil shoot peeping its curious head out to smell the air, to face the warm rays of the sun, to give a new color to the earth...to give a new cheerful ambience to the suroundings...
lil brightly colored flowers appearing on the brunette ground. so many of them together...appear to look like a 100 smiles speard all across the floor.
the subtle nuances of beauty
that each comin day brings with it....
the consistency with which the changes take place....
the certainity that they promise...in its own vague manner...
the fuel that it adds to the already ceaseless fascination that i have for it.
hmmmmmm
life is worth living:)
and its beautiful.
Tuesday, April 13, 2004
somtimes i feel like i am an angel:)
and i am sooo sweet..
and i am soo nice....
and that explains y soo many ppl like me soo much...
at times i cant stop thinkin and wondering about y and how come i am so nice and so ...well..u know...
hahhaha....when vanity speaks.
but then yeah somtimes i do feel i am such a sweetheart.nuthins wrong about that.... is it?
and i am sooo sweet..
and i am soo nice....
and that explains y soo many ppl like me soo much...
at times i cant stop thinkin and wondering about y and how come i am so nice and so ...well..u know...
hahhaha....when vanity speaks.
but then yeah somtimes i do feel i am such a sweetheart.nuthins wrong about that.... is it?
was a dark rainy nite last nite...the kind when you wudnt wanna b alone. we were goin bac home from school....after a long day for me and my mind filled with thotssince the whole week is gonna b such that vey moment seems to be occupied already.
i did not even realise that the cars were there till it all happenend. we were waiting at a signal when one car came from the front and the other black one from the left....all i noticed was that the black one banged into the other.....a loud horrid bang...changed its angle towards us bcoz of the bang and we missed that car...or rather that car missed us by 4 feet....and went past us over the lawns into the parkin lot of one of the shops....we waited for a few more mins at the lite and in that much time no one from either of the cars got out...so i dont even know if they were ok or not...in fact i think they were not ok....one guy ran towards the black car to help the ppl in and to see if they were ok....meanwhile the gal in the other car was ...from what it appeared...struggling to get the doors to open and it seemed like she was not being able to since the doors had gotten locked....and her car looked a complete mess...the entire front was in pieces, the fuel pouring out from below some sort of light fumes emanating out of it and a pale yellow face trying to get out.....
4 feet.
god scared the shit out of me....such things always do....its horrid when u r in such a helpless situation where u r probably not even at fault and things happen ...as bad as this...
gosh...wish things were more in our control than they are rite now....
i did not even realise that the cars were there till it all happenend. we were waiting at a signal when one car came from the front and the other black one from the left....all i noticed was that the black one banged into the other.....a loud horrid bang...changed its angle towards us bcoz of the bang and we missed that car...or rather that car missed us by 4 feet....and went past us over the lawns into the parkin lot of one of the shops....we waited for a few more mins at the lite and in that much time no one from either of the cars got out...so i dont even know if they were ok or not...in fact i think they were not ok....one guy ran towards the black car to help the ppl in and to see if they were ok....meanwhile the gal in the other car was ...from what it appeared...struggling to get the doors to open and it seemed like she was not being able to since the doors had gotten locked....and her car looked a complete mess...the entire front was in pieces, the fuel pouring out from below some sort of light fumes emanating out of it and a pale yellow face trying to get out.....
4 feet.
god scared the shit out of me....such things always do....its horrid when u r in such a helpless situation where u r probably not even at fault and things happen ...as bad as this...
gosh...wish things were more in our control than they are rite now....
Friday, April 09, 2004
jus when i am about to reach the spirit that spells nuthin can ever go rong......
somthin stupid happens
everytime..
and then it always goes to a stage wher i am always convinced that nutthin can ever go rite
always...
how come??????
somthin stupid happens
everytime..
and then it always goes to a stage wher i am always convinced that nutthin can ever go rite
always...
how come??????
how come lots re....
how come cp knew what i was sayin....
how come distances dont matter...
how come distances matter....
how come moods swing...
how come there r questions without answers.....
how come what appears is not and what does not is.....
how come the complexities of life...the pains of growing up...the tears of missing.
how comes the yearning of childhood.
how come rains...rainbows...skies...fireflies....winds...waves...life...love....aversion....sunshines and shades....
how come all at once or non at all.....
how come? how come? how come?
how come cp knew what i was sayin....
how come distances dont matter...
how come distances matter....
how come moods swing...
how come there r questions without answers.....
how come what appears is not and what does not is.....
how come the complexities of life...the pains of growing up...the tears of missing.
how comes the yearning of childhood.
how come rains...rainbows...skies...fireflies....winds...waves...life...love....aversion....sunshines and shades....
how come all at once or non at all.....
how come? how come? how come?
Thursday, April 08, 2004
Thursday, April 01, 2004
"everything is possible in my head,i can make anything possible by dreaming about it- but do I always dream for the impossible!Do I not start with imagining something before knowing that it is impossible...how do I then decide what I can seek and what not is the question...
Priya | 03.31.04 - 12:41 pm | #"
dreams.....
lets think about this one, priya...now...if somthing was possible...then u wud not need to imagine it...it wud b happenin...u imagine what is beyond the realms of possibility....and more often than not what seems rather absurd...
my view is that once u venture out u'l know...if ur imagination can become reality or will remain in the showcase of the surreal world.
i love dreamz...and most often the day i manage to remember a dream after i wake up i tend to give more than required attention to that dream...thinkin that the very fact that its hanging around in my mind means that it mite jus have som significance....
then ther r some weird dreams....ther r som shockin dreams...som seem absolutely meaningless....ther r some wher it becomes almost impossible to draw a line between whats a part of the dream and whats a part of things that have happened in the past...then i have had the same dreams again and again...and ther were those that kept me in a trance the following day...that made me think of issues that i unintentionally neglected.....hmmm
dreamz ner cease to amaze me.....i remember bac home the 1st thing i'd do after gettin up is catching hold of whoever is around and makin them sit and listen to my dreams...hehehhe....and those who managed to escape from the "nonsense" all pretended to b endlessly thankful ... which now i am more than sure they miss a lot...hahhahaha...
coz my dreamz are that captivating....;)hehehe....ok...that sounding too far fetched...but honestly...i wonder what each of these "dreams" are meant for, are meant to do or whatevah...
hmmmmmmmm
"if u want ur dreams to come true..sleep"...i dont believe this...coz me not a sleep person.but me definitely a dream person.
u wont believe how what u seek can change if u only know which way to view ur dreamz....
relative world.
...priorities....complexities....changes...evolutions....
limits.
dont tie dn dreams in them.
Priya | 03.31.04 - 12:41 pm | #"
dreams.....
lets think about this one, priya...now...if somthing was possible...then u wud not need to imagine it...it wud b happenin...u imagine what is beyond the realms of possibility....and more often than not what seems rather absurd...
my view is that once u venture out u'l know...if ur imagination can become reality or will remain in the showcase of the surreal world.
i love dreamz...and most often the day i manage to remember a dream after i wake up i tend to give more than required attention to that dream...thinkin that the very fact that its hanging around in my mind means that it mite jus have som significance....
then ther r some weird dreams....ther r som shockin dreams...som seem absolutely meaningless....ther r some wher it becomes almost impossible to draw a line between whats a part of the dream and whats a part of things that have happened in the past...then i have had the same dreams again and again...and ther were those that kept me in a trance the following day...that made me think of issues that i unintentionally neglected.....hmmm
dreamz ner cease to amaze me.....i remember bac home the 1st thing i'd do after gettin up is catching hold of whoever is around and makin them sit and listen to my dreams...hehehhe....and those who managed to escape from the "nonsense" all pretended to b endlessly thankful ... which now i am more than sure they miss a lot...hahhahaha...
coz my dreamz are that captivating....;)hehehe....ok...that sounding too far fetched...but honestly...i wonder what each of these "dreams" are meant for, are meant to do or whatevah...
hmmmmmmmm
"if u want ur dreams to come true..sleep"...i dont believe this...coz me not a sleep person.but me definitely a dream person.
u wont believe how what u seek can change if u only know which way to view ur dreamz....
relative world.
...priorities....complexities....changes...evolutions....
limits.
dont tie dn dreams in them.
