there are times when there is this horrible pang
that leaves a void in the tummy..
an empty feeling...
the kind one wud get when somthin is missin ...when somthin is amiss...
when i feel like i'd break into tears any instant..

when u wipe out mist from a piece of glass and look beyond..
similar to replaying certain precious moments of the past bac in ur mind...
an overwhelming feeling that i almost feel that i wont be able to bare...
memories of those lovely people..
that left touched my life.
that left me with a smile..

i miss the presence of those charming smiles in my life.:(

"sunrise sunset sunrise sunset,
swiftly flow the days...
seedlings turn over night to sunflowers
blossoming even as we gaze....

sunrise sunset sunrise sunset,
swiftly flow the years...
one season following another
laden with happiness and tears"

and then when u get to doin things...
at the very 1st thing that u undertake u get stuck....

when a dream continues even after u wake up...
when a dream transforms to a nitemare ...

hmmm....
kya yaar:(

hey...guess what happenend yesterday....it was thrilling....
i saw...for the 1st time in the US...
10s and 30s of them....lil ones...bright ones....like me :) ;)...
a stunning but dwindling image..kabhi yahan kabhi wahan..
mann se chanchal..jugnoos....

sehemisi thi main jab anjanoon se ghiri thi..
aur ek hi zhalak se..mann ki saari ulzhanoon ko bhula diya

raat ke andheroon ko roushan karne wale tim timate hue...
anjane log aur anjani jagah me apnepan ka ehsaas dilane waale...
kuch purani yaadon ko fir se taaza kar gaye jo...
bass kuch hi paloon me muskanoon ka bhandaar de gaye vo...

:)
:)
:)

and then u suddenly realise there is too much to do ...too much that can b done...a lifetime....naaaaaaaaaaah too short.

its a different world out here...its an all new experience...its amazing..its wonderful.
and am i glad about this opportunity that i got:)..

and then there are others.......

there are those who are nice and helpful.....
:)

"it shud click...."

nope....
"u shud know how to make it click"
howzzat?

yeah been seing for a while now how thingsn work...and how things dont work....

ask
ask
ASK
ASK

and then ask again....
and somtim somhow it will work...

weird way of makin things work...
definitely not an appealin way of makin things work...
but the only way to make things work in favor of u...

its a task
wear a smily mask...
go ahead and ask...

if u'r good at it...
they'll think u'r fit
otherwise u'll jus have to sit.

ask the rite question
make the rite mention
and that makes a useful session
ask at the rong time
and u wont b fine..
since u'll get to hear the rong chime...

its sad the way it works...
the way it works it sucks..
all depends on lucks..

yeah life is beautiful...
yeah life is wonderful...

but yeah u can still smile.
and u can still go all the miles.
and u can climb all the hills...

get the rite task...
go ahead and ask.

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

and why is it happening that i seem to be workin all the while and nuthin is comin into my hand at the end of the day....
and guess what....
the same thing happened today...
the same thing happened yesterday...
the same thing happened day b4....
the same thing happened day b4 day b4....
the same thing happened day b4 that day b4...
and...
yup...
guessed it rite...
same thing b4 that too...
so what have i been doin?
i dont seem to have an answer....
but i've not had time...
but i've not gotten as much as 30% of the work that has been churning inside my head in the last i donno how many days....
hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

so what am i doin?