see...see what i mean...now even the polymer wont spare me!....
its supposed to go on paper...it wont...and its NOT supposed to go on my clothes......

awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
hellllllllllllllllllllll

i am not in a mood to entertain comets anymore....things and ppl that are there today and not there tomorrow=comets......they are just so not absolute....so capricious.....I need something other than "others" and "other things" to please me....to elevate my mood...
of course there is food that u can always count on....but other than that...
the one person who spends the most time with me is...of course me! (though these days i feel even the walls of my lab know me that well!!!! hahaha!)
and so "bulb!!!!!!!!!" I did this absolutely narcissist thing today. I made this picture folder called "me!!!!" with my own pics in it....man I am so much in love with myself after goin thru that folder !!!!! I am like "man!!! i am so good!!!" hehehhehe....

and know the best part?...it worked....
i am so happy now...laffin at myself at the silly thing that i did...laffin!
so we'r cool!:)

hmmmmmmmmmmmmm

make hay while the sun shines....
catch the ray in ur eye while the sunny side is up....

i thot about it the other day ...but forgot to post it.
ignorance is bliss.
or is it?
is it jus another of those 100 ways of finding excuses?
is it jus another way of hiding from the world?
is it jus another way to let the laze in you rule your world?

ignorance is bliss...fools
silence is golden...wise ones

know what you need to talk when u need to talk. do your homework.

its sooooooooo....
brrrrrr...
its soo irritating...
wen u answer the fone and it gets cut or loses signal and it shows "No ID" and you cannot call back coz it says "Invalid Number"
and then u stare at the fone 10 times thinkin it will ring again ...
but obviously it doesnt!

hmmmmmmmmm

they shud pay u to do nuthin...
really...
at least u r not adding to the mess already there...
they shud pay u...to do nuthin.

so i was havin this rather interestingly horrible day...
and every min i was gettin more and more convinced that everything sucks...
and i decided i needed the walk for the day...and all thru the walk i was thinking about how everything about everything thats happenin around is so sucked up and i was gettin more and more convinced that i am such a nonentity around here...and suddenly i saw them...a 100 at once glimmerin and glowing and hiding away...
its the second time i saw them in this country...
they look beautiful.
they look so alive...they are so arcanely attractive.
they made there presence felt....subtly bright
pretty thingys
suddenly i managed a smile...
awesome walk.

there cannot be any side of the bed as wrong as the one i got out of this morning. its definitely the "wrongest" side that can ever be on the face of this earth.

what an absolutely miserable day till now!
unfortunately i cant even recollect how i got out of the bed so that i wont do that again!...
for that matter do or not do anythin that wud reqd to keep me out of such a miserable day.

and the good news is that only half of the day is over yet! brrrrrrrrrrrr....im scacred of the rest of the day.

hmmmmmmmmmmmmm

i saw this movie called...a...a.a....whats the name..."freaky friday"
was really really funny....
this gal turns into her mom and the mom turns into the dotter.
and in the midst of all the mess in the movie it suddenly hit my mind....
what if....i turned into my mom and she turned into me!!!
i swear i have not stopped laffin about it for a very long time....
she wud disown me if she got to know me thru me!!!!!!
hehehehe....
and i cant even start to imagine what i wud think of her life...and what i wud think of my dotter as my mother....
complicated eh?
;)
i know...
but its funny...really....
hehehhahahhahahahahahahahahhahahahahhahahahahhaahhahahahahahahahahahahahaha.....
gosh...!
:D

so i held a guitar in my hand for the 1st time in my life.
tried to look for the rite pitch the rite sounds...the rite sequences...tired to get the notes rite....

someday i wish the lord of guitar bestows upon me his blessings.

Amen
:)

its quite a stir.....
wen a call comes from oceans apart.
doesnt happen often.

a cousin called this morning.
early in the morning.
I spoke to him 2nd time in 2 yrs...the 1st time being his bday wen i had called.

keeping in touch.
quite an art!